4 in a bed shouldn't be lonely.....but it is.....

Me and Jay

Murphy

Jay has been working out of town now for two years on and off.   I admit, it has made me miss him.  Especially at night.  The house is quiet, Stevi and I never turn the TV on, I talk to FB when I get really lonely, sad I know, or I have a couple of really great friends who have dropped by for visits or invited me to dinner  to get me out of the house.  I also have my Mondays with two of my favorite people CJ and Stacy.
I'm  usually fine until it's lights out.  When Jay is here, he snores, usually in my face.  And yes he farts a lot, then of course moves so I get the full effect from the wind of the blankets (it feels like wind when its one of those believe me!).  He sleeps restless, talks in  his sleep and groans, yells sometimes thrashes about and if he's been drinking, he just plain smells.
And I miss that.  I have to sleep with earplugs in when he's home, I have to use a sleep aid when he's home.  But he's home and I can sleep.  We have been together for 28 years and despite all the ways he can keep me awake, I believe those are also reasons I can sleep.

Daddy loving one of his Ladies

He never holds me because  his shoulder hurts and he snores so loud right in my ear it just doesn't work, plus I don't like being held too tightly for reasons I will surely blog about some day, I admit that is something I miss.  But sometimes his feet will touch mine or he will hold my hand or stroke my arm or back and I know he is there.  I never know when he wakes up because that big man is quiet as a mouse so he doesn't wake me.  He lets me sleep in and when he is home on weekends he usually makes me and Stevi breakfast and usually makes a pot of coffee so I don't have to.

So during the week, I push my bench in my room so my mini-doxies Raider and Dyna can get in bed with me, (gross unless you are a true animal lover I know) and my cat Murphy sleeps wrapped around my head.  Last night as I was scratching Murphy into a purring frenzy while I was trying to fall asleep, I hear a deep sigh and look over at Jay's pillow,  Raider was sleeping with the covers up to his neck facing me with his head on Jay's pillow,  Dyna as usual, was under the blankets wrapped into my boot, protecting it.  So with all that action, why would I feel so lonely?

I would guess 1991

A  gently touch and words of love and acknowledgement actually  are needed in my world.Are they needed in yours?

Raider and Dyna (she's the black)