This week was exhausting but it was such a great week. It was a roller coaster of emotion and at one point I said to my friend Sherry.."Bring it on, what's next!?" Her response was..."Quit asking for it..." She is so right. Ever since my Dad died in 2006, with the economy tanking, it has been one thing after another. I generally have a positive outlook and try to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I must admit, when I broke my ankle 9 weeks ago, I felt defeat. My exercise program was the glue to keeping me whole and feeling sane. I felt great and was looking great. Then I hit the wall. With Jay out of town, Stevi being sick a lot, business down, the broken ankle, the house flooding, my Mom's dog dying, the IRS chasing me, getting food poisoning, losing our house, my Harley and closing the salon I worked so hard to build, I sometimes wanted to crawl into a hole in the fetal position and just go to sleep. Not being able to sleep is a big issue especially emotionally and physically. It begins to take its toll on anyone.
Since Jay is now home, he got laid off and starts a job in Incline Village on Monday working 4-10's which will be awesome, and Stevi just finished cheer season, we will be able to have family dinners again. Also, with Jay home, I won't have to do all the running around and with a possible diagnosis for Stevi's constant illness, we now are forced to change the household to a Wheat free, Gluten free zone to make it easy for her. I just finished Cross Fit this morning and it was an amazing workout that felt so good I could of cried! I didn't crave the usual daily naughty coffee, but instead stopped at the Jus Bar and got an Age Reversal juice with spinach and chugged that down feeling even better. There are a lot of Sun ray's coming through the clouds, we got the flooring replaced this morning and after 5 weeks, I may be able to actually do our laundry at home. Stevi will have more free time and wants to start going to Cross Fit with me and probably start dance again as well as Volleyball and practice her singing. I now need to look forward to what life has to give instead of looking back to what life has taken. We are all struggling to survive. I now realize that I had lost my ability to see all the good in the world and I chose to start living happy and stress free. My neck is back in place, weekly visits to the Chiropractor have helped me with that, I have eliminated my freebies, given the kids money towards their wedding at the end of June, gotten through cheer seasons hectic schedule with Jay living out of town , I am able to hike again, run a little and exercise. Now we will be eating healthy and my body can already feel the difference. So I chose to dismount my horse I've been riding to the pity party and start this rodeo all over again, after all, it's not my first.
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Atta girl!
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