Saturday, November 27, 2010

25 years......Road Bumps or Menopause?

When you have been with the same person for 26 years, sometimes you start to question......Why am I here?  I have to constantly remind my husband that I am still here, that I am a woman, that I have needs.  Women like romance, a gentle touch, a kind word, consideration, communication.  Why are we cut from two different molds?  I have been a hormonal mess lately, I know it could be that.  Or is it that at age 42, I just don't feel like I have to put up with anyones crap anymore?  It is kind of a good place to be, and not.  My whole life I have been trying to make sure everyone around me is happy, comfortable.  I have always put myself last, as most women do.  Who is going to make sure I am ok?  The only person who will is me.  So I am working on it.  It has been an emotional month, talking and discussing what I want, need and desire to be happy.  Weird thing, he agreed with everything I said....EVERYTHING.  He wants to work on our relationship as bad as I do.....but I am so exhausted from being the only one who tries to make sure everything is o k.  The ball is in his court.......I am going to focus on me.  Selfish?  Maybe........About Damn Time?  Probably...........Will this make our relationship stronger?  I hope so........I'm just tired.

1 comment:

A Mom Anonymous said...

I hear ya. I've been with FG for 18 years. Not as long as you but we go through the same things. And financial strain is horrible on a marriage!!! I hope you guys can work through any issues. It's too long to just walk away without trying and yes, he should work his ass off to make you happy!!

I'm sorry to read about not seeing Jack. WHAT HAPPENED???? FG didn't mention anything when he last saw you! It breaks my heart for you!